Cutting right to the chase as it regards my previous post.
It was always my intention for this blog to be something different from most of the blogs out there. I wanted a record -- of what I was working on at a given time, how I felt about it, and what I was obsessing over. A production diary, not just for a single production, but for anything I was giving my time and creative energy to. Stuff like my birthday post really doesn't fit those qualifications at all -- and though that sort of introspection is not odd for me on a nightly basis, privacy, personal principles, and the existence of the black book usually means those grievances don't get aired here. But some still make it past all that. I think, sometimes, maybe they shouldn't.
Yet sometimes putting stuff out here makes me feel better. And there's not a long list of things that do that, which makes me think I shouldn't swear off the practice completely. And nothing I said yesterday is any less true today. Yet the blogs I admire, the ones that made me think a space like this could work for me, don't let the depressives rants slip through.
I'm too split on this subject, and I feel it would be unfair to promise to myself to do one thing or the other from now on. Some days I get things done, and some days things are bad. Similarly, some days the things that get done won't be posted even though they should be, and some days the bad will probably take center stage. What I do know, and this might not make sense to everyone, is that things like yesterday's post say to me that in the future I may have to abandon this journal.
And why does that scare me?
To other things. I'd like to thank Ian and Julia for looking at "Nova" for me. I can't thank them enough, and hope to pick their brains further on it. I know John and I have also gone over it, I imagine Kyle has had a look, and I sent one to Savannah too. However, that's only five people so far, and ADrive tells me that eight different ISP's have downloaded it. Not calling anyone out, but if you have taken a look, I'd like to talk to you about what you thought. You can comment in this post, or send me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org. I'd really appreciate it.